Dare i say it?

yup thats right. i am fairly up and down but since my 2nd last appointment over 2 weeks ago i would dare say i am stable. my anxeity is fairly high...but i think thats the heat (my meds make me unable to deal with heat and light and my weight humidity). that and the fighting kids....but i am dealing with that fairly good considering they are alive and i am not crying in the corner in the fetal position. as long as i am able to freely vent my frustrations i can handle them. we put down my dose of cymbalata (and after weight loss i am hoping to get rid of it totally) and also my respirdol since the monring dose was making me fall asleep all the time. i have an appointment with my therapist who is helping me learn ways other then meds to cope with severe anxiety. anyways i had an appointment with Dr. tidd today and it went really well. i go back in just over a month. hopefully i can handle that long! i do get depressed with my weight, i hated seeing pics of myself from my 10th anniversary party on the weekend. man i look different then before sebastian was born, and not in a good way. and i get depressed about being unable to walk or stand much. but i have a date soon for weight loss surgery (see my other blog) and i beleive that will fix that. me and dr. tidd beleive it will help my self esteem and depression a lot. but all in all things are looking pretty good.