The last couple days I have felt pretty normal. Not depressed and not hypo.
then today I am jsut sitting here reading e mails, and I get the urge to slice my wrists open. Wtf? so now I am getting sucidla thoughts even when I am normal? I dont want to kill myself..why do i think this way? its very upsetting. And when i think it I see it graphically in my mind. the blood pouring everywhere, etc..then i start to think that it would be a nice idea..untill i shake my head and go on with my day. I dont have any plans (as my shrink would ask) but why does it pop into my head?
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